In preparation for my life's 29th Thanksgiving holiday, here are 29 things I am thankful for:
1 – Depth perception, that I am not constantly ramming into
and tripping over things
2 – For every time a Pokémon reference is made during church, in order to illustrate a
gospel principle. It’s rare, but when it does happen? Right on the money. #gottacatchemall
3 – The fact that there is a Beatles song that can
accompany a little over half of all dialogues and discussions you have with
people
4 – The fact that there is a Nacho Libre quote that can
accompany about a third of said dialogues and discussions
5 – For my betta fish who, like a Diagon Alley wand from
the Ollivander shop, chose me. All the other bettas on the tall shelf were like
zombie bettas. When I walked up to the shelf, the zombie bettas just floated
stationarily, not doing a bloomin’ thing. But my fish? He was the only one who
acknowledged my presence. In fact, he started fluttering his fins
uncontrollably at the sight of me, and would jump out of his little container
and into my arms if he could. This was the fish from my dreams. A week or so
prior to my buying my fish, I dreamed that I had a pet betta, and I kept him in
a little glass bowl by a windowsill, in the sunshine. I walked over to the
windowsill to say hi to the fish and to gaze out the window at the lovely
scenery of the yard. The fish jumped out of his bowl and onto my shirt,
just below my chin. He was crying, like, human tears – really BIG humanesque
tears. Whimpering, he spoke like a human, and asked me, “Why don’t you ever
hold me and pet me!?” And I said, “Because you are a fish and so you will die
if I take you out to hold you and pet you!” And then I woke up the next morning
and decided I really needed to buy a fish.
6 – For elevator brakes, that the elevators I ride in every
day do not plummet to my doom
7 – That I’m not allergic to peanuts at all, and that I’m
not ridiculously allergic to kittens
8 – For the beautiful life process of growing up as a
generation and making way for a new one to rise. I love to look back on my
younger days of having childhood fun with my siblings and cousins. We all had
such a ball together as kids. Now that we’re older, we look at the children who
have entered our lives – these children are siblings and cousins and friends to
one another, and make sweet and precious memories with each other, as we did
when we were their age. And before they know it, they’re going to be as old as
we are now, and they are going to have younglings of their own, and witness
this process for themselves. I just love all of it so much!
9 – Of course I am thankful for floss. How could I not
include that on this list?
10 – That I made the decision to take the old perm and
roller curlers I found in my family’s house, which had not been used for years,
and incorporate them into my life
11 – For Jesus Christ’s amazing atonement, especially for
the power it has to help me clean up slates, move on, and become better.
Repentance is a miraculous thing. We can say goodbye forever to the wrongs
we’ve done in the past. If we walk hand-in-hand with the Lord, and allow Him to
help us to become improved versions of ourselves, we can leave our sins in the
dust for good. So awesome
12 – For people who know how to play stringed instruments. I
really do think that God was the first person to design the
violin/viola/cello/bass/etc. I don’t think it was a mortal human who came up
with that idea. I think God had the blueprints with Him in heaven, and one day
He decided to tell a mortal about it, by way of thought implant (aka divine
inspiration)
13 – That I spent my youth having happy, goofy, dorky little
dogs at my house. I loved them so much. Even though they’ve both been gone for
10+ years, I still miss them a lot every day
14 – Truly am grateful for the hardest trials that have come
up in my life. These are things that for-real have helped me strengthen my
familial relationship with my Father in Heaven
15 – That I learned to play piano at a young age, and stuck
with it, so that I can play piano for the elderly, who can sing along to the
songs I share
16 – For Alloy.com, the
best place in the world for jeans for me. Srsly, where would I be without that
place?
17 – That the megalodon and the human have never lived on
planet Earth at the same time
18 – That most plants are not poisonous
19 – That houseflies are not venomous (wait, are some
species of fly venomous?)
20 – For Jimmy Stewart
21 – That the sky has always been blue. If the sky had never
been blue, and if our sky had always been, say, green (as the grass and the
leaves on the trees) … I don’t know about you, but I would have gone about
every day feeling a terribly uneasy feeling for a reason that I could never put
my finger on … because the reason would be the fact that the sky was never
blue, and I would never have known that that was what the problem was, because
why would I have ever had a reason to believe that a blue sky – as opposed to a
green sky – would kiss all my unexplained troubles away? #babbling
#likealunatick
22 – That there are no cockroaches where I live
23 – That I currently can fall asleep for a night’s rest
within 5 minutes of my head hitting my pillow. Trying to not take that for
granted
24 – For the choice I made to keep an emergency deodorant in
my purse at all times
25 – For various people who were happy to “spot me” or “get
my back” (Don’t worry, gurl, I got yo
back!) in my random little moments of dire need
26 – For the random little moments when someone has asked me
if I could aid them in their random little moments of emergency (a statement
that could be read as vague, but I think you may know what I’m talking about)
27 – That I can read and write
28 – For the goodly IT/computer-smart people in the world.
These are the people who tell me what they do for work, and it goes waaaaaaaaay
over my head, but all I really need to do is soundly understand that whatever
they do for a living is help me live in a technological world and make easier
for me things that I didn’t even
29 – The people I love. The people I am honored to call my
family and friends
Hello, world. I know there’s this something that
my heart is telling me I should write – if for no one else, then for my own
benefit. I’m gonna try to pen it all out on here, but I’m really not sure how
to start, so bear with me. Loads of it may not be very coherent, or even
correct, and it may turn out to be just a whole bunch of rambles. It may also
turn out to be kind of long. But it’s all stuff that I’ve been meaning to
record for a long time, and perhaps there will be some small nugget in here
that may be helpful to you. Here goes nothin’:
THE IRON ROD
I and other members of my faith love to read this book
called The Book of
Mormon. In it, we read about a certain “rod of iron” that a man
named Lehi has a really vivid and even life-changing dream about. Since The
Book of Mormon is a non-fiction book about events that did actually
occur, Lehi was a real person. Lived approximately 600 years before Jesus
Christ was born in the little Palestinian town of Bethlehem. Lehi was a prophet
of God as well as a faithful husband to his wife and a loving father to his
children.
Colloquially, we “Mormons” (members of The Church of Jesus
Christ of Latter-day Saints) call the “rod of iron” the “iron rod.” We even
have a great hymn about it in our hymnal from which we sing at church on
Sundays. (Hymn #274, actually. Ooo la la.)
Hold to the rod, the iron rod; ‘tis strong, and bright,
and true.
The iron rod is the word of God; ‘twill safely guide us
through.
That’s what the chorus lyrics are. If you’re reading this and
you’re not familiar with what the iron rod is, or what it symbolizes (ah! you
see? I just gave you a clue as to what it is: it’s symbolic of
something deep and important!), then I encourage you to read about it from the
very best source, which is – yes, I’ve already told you a couple of paragraphs
ago – The
Book of Mormon!
One way to look at the iron rod, is seeing it as a way of life
that’s dedicated to trusting in God and following Christ’s teachings and
example of how to live, and faithfully and prayerfully living accordingly.
(That may have been a weirdly-written sentence, but … well … oh well; it is
what it is.) And what that way of life leads to, if the best of efforts are put
into accomplishing that way of life, is the greatest of all gifts – the
greatest of all prizes to be won – by any person. (Again, read more about
it here.)
OH, YA KNOW – JUST LIVIN’ THE DREAM…
These days, here in the middle of my mortality, in this current
chapter in my book of life, I feel like my life is pretty charmed. You know how
sometimes you ask your friend as you’re greeting them, “Hey! How are you!?” and
they reply, “Oh, ya know – just livin’ the dream…” Common answer, right? People
in America say that phrase all the time. It’s a verbal cliché of casualness
that people use when they are feeling too lazy to answer “how are you” with any
intricateness whatsoever.
But I just want you all to know, that if you ask me how I’m
doing nowadays, and I answer you gustoically with “Livin’ the dream!” … just
know that I truthfully, earnestly mean it! Sure, there are things going on in
my life that aren’t exactly what I’d like for them to be, and I absolutely do
have my tough times and rough days to deal with… But all in all? Life is so
good. Aside from the oftentimes-difficult challenges that pop up like startling
jack-in-the-box clowns……
……there are so many other things that are so good. I love my
job; I love interacting daily with the wonderful people whom I get to call my
friends and family; I love serving in my church and community in the ways I do;
I love the country that I call home; I love the hobbies that I practice……
And here’s what I attribute much of it to: education.
EDU-MA-CATION
Lots of people go to college. I am among those lots. I had the
pleasure of attending Brigham Young University – Idaho and receiving a
Bachelor’s degree from there.
When I was a fresh new 18-year-old freshman, I knew exactly what
I wanted to be when I grew up. Oodles of the rest of the student body didn’t. I
felt lucky, and felt like I was totally ready and equipped to gun for my degree
and git ‘er done.
But that’s how I felt for only the first week of school or so. I
was sitting in one of my classes one morning – one of those introductory class
sessions where they go over the projected schedule for the semester – and some
goofy thought seized my thinking cap. I
think I need to change majors. This isn’t for me. I don’t know why, but this
isn’t for me, I thought.
Back in high school, I really loved the studies that my original
college major entailed (the major that I just mentioned that I had abandoned).
Like, it was my passion. But fast-forwarding to that day when I decided to
abruptly change my major, I remembered that, in high school, I was also really
passionate about writing and editing. I had been a writer and lead copy editor
for our school’s multiple-time award-winning yearbook. The written word had
always been one of my greatest loves. And so to further my work in that field
collegiately? Awesome. Let’s go for it! I
said.
MAJORS, MINORS, TRA-LA-LA
I still had a special place in my heart for my original major
(music), so I couldn’t bag that eternally. It still meant a lot to me. And so I
made it my minor. Intensely important choice I made, that was. You’ll see why
later in this post.
Zooming through my four years at my university, I’ll just tell
you that, yes, I did fill my Communication-major journey with Titanic-loads of
writing, editing, event planning, advertising, and radio and television
broadcast experience, both academic and professional in nature. I felt like I
had become as seasoned of a communications guru as a fresh-off-the-grill
college grad could possibly be.
I finished my degree off with a big bang, by successfully
completing an absolutely fabulous internship in Washington, D.C., practically
on Pennsylvania Avenue. Did tons of public affairs work that involved foreign
Ambassadors to the United States. Did tons of correspondence writing that I
perceived to terribly nifty and exciting. What an internship. What a summer.
Right after those Back East months, I knew I wanted to keep
writing. It was too much fun. I landed several interviews to be a writer/editor
for different magazines and newspapers. My notion with each interview was that
I had a pretty decent chance of landing the job……
JOB HUNTING = BARF
Never happened, though. Never landed my “dream job.” Not for
several months. Kept shooting for it to happen. Kept getting interviews, but
was never chosen. I think it had a bit to do with the nation’s overall economy.
I think that year was perhaps the USA’s worst year in its latest economic
downturn. Yeah, there were tons of kids getting degrees, but the jobs seemed to
be fewer. Too much demand, too little supply, in the job sense.
Ladies and gentlemen, these “job hunting” months were possibly
the darkest of all my Alisonian time periods. I’ve had plenty of sad stuff
occur in my life, but I was always able to find comfort in those trials. This
time was somehow very different, and for some weird reason, a lot harder to
feel solace in. This time, it was an especially prolonged trial that felt more
like I was exhaustedly treading water in a deep well, rather than healing up
from a cut in my emotional skin, on which I could apply ointment and receive
some relief.
This time? Just downright stinky. Bummeriffic. I’ve never had to
undergo long-term depression, never had to take medicine for it. But at this
time? I thought, I wonder if this is kind
of what depression feels like. With every interview I had, I became bluer
and bluer, and I know that it showed in my eyes, face, and mannerisms. The
interviewers could see it. I’d go sob in my car sometimes, after an interview.
PLEASANTLY SURPRISING TURN FOR THE BETTER
And then I applied for one more job. Different from everything
else I had previously sought after, I noticed an opening for a technical
writer, and I thought, I don’t think I
know anything about technical writing, but hey! I’m good at many different
writing styles, so how hard could technical writing be?
Applied. Interviewed. Nailed it. They wanted me. I said “great!”
Didn’t know what I was getting myself into. But it was the happiest day I had
had in a long, long time.
It was originally supposed to be only a three-month gig. They
thought they’d hire someone on for just a tiny bit, because once the project
they needed done was done, they wouldn’t need the person anymore. I knew about
that, going into the interview, and perhaps the knowledge of the temporariness
should have been a big turn-off, but some little bird prompted me to get
interviewed anyway, and accept the job if they offered it.
And they did offer it! (Oh, I think I already said that. Hehe.)
And you know what? What ended up happening is them creating a permanent spot
for me. They liked me well enough to do that. They wanted to keep me. It was
awesome. Over the span of 4.5 years, I learned so much about science and
business and exporting (no, I did not take a drug cartel job) than I ever thought
I would ever know about.
Other things too: I memorized all the different types of Vitamin
B. I learned how to handle an FDA (Food & Drug Administration) audit. I
learned how to train fellow employees on Good Manufacturing Practices (GMP). I
learned what it means to build good relationships with clients and help them
accomplish their business goals. I built great relationships and friendships
with people I worked with. I learned how a corporation works, how a warehouse
works, how chemistry and microbiology laboratories smell and work, how a
plethora of various factory machineries work. Oh my rad. It all rocked.
Sometimes I even got to do what I used to love to do in college: event
planning! Planned the company Christmas parties! Once even had a handsome Mormon
celebrity’s phone number stored in my
phone, because I had invited him and his comedy team be the entertainment for
the shindiggity-dig…… (**COUGH**CurtDoussett**COUGH**)
What a pleasantly surprising turn for the better. There was such
a massive contrast between what those long-ago darksome months of job hunting
were, and what those 4.5 years of being a budding businesswoman were. Even
though it was never my plan, back in college, to be a businesswoman in that
particular realm, I believe it was what I was prepared to do and meant to do. I
know God’s hand was all over that.
WHAT CAME NEXT
And then, out of the blue, I got a phone call from the Human
Resource Department of my current workplace. Now it was they who wanted me to
work for them. It felt like the right time in my life for a change, for another
wonderful opportunity to grow myself as a professional and as a person. I took
them up on the offer, and a year or two later, here I am.
It’s seriously a dream job that I have now. Again, it wasn’t
what I thought would be my dream job,
back in high school and college. It wasn’t “music teacher.” It wasn’t “big-time
magazine editor.” It wasn’t anything that had even crossed my mind, let alone
ever conceptualized in my mind.
But I think it’s what God knew would be my dream job. I think He
knew it all along.
DIDN’T GO ACCORDING TO PLAN, BUT IT’S FAR BETTER THAT WAY
And so here I sit, on a sweet Saturday afternoon, gazing out the
window at the year’s first snowfall on the ground, contemplating and writing
about all that’s good in my life right now, and the bumpy, twisty, turny,
sometimes-turbulent road that got me here. I’m thinking a lot about college – a
lot about how some of the specific types of work I did in college aren’t
anywhere near being ridiculously similar to the types of work I’m doing
nowadays. And by that, I mean I’m not writing and editing for publications, and
I don’t regularly plan fancy parties and seminars (though I do get to help do
that every now and then – oh fer yay!).
But the works I’m doing now are what God knew, from the very
beginning, were going to someday be my dream works. (Bahaha! No “DreamWorks”
animation studios pun intended!) I’ve lately been noticing how many, many times
His hand has been guiding me through my days and life chapters.
-- He led me to learn piano when I was tiny, and to keep working at it. I’d
srrrrsly need that initial musical foundation later, like srsly
-- He led me through junior high and high school, years during which I
solidly learned that music was my passion (alto sax and choir, baby!)
-- He led me to be on the yearbook staff
-- He led me to my university, helped me with all my responsibilities
there, and encouraged me to try new neat things that would help me grow and learn
wisdom
-- He led me to D.C.
-- He led me through the awful job hunting quagmires, until He helped me
land that splendid sciency, businessy job that I at first thought was totally
not up my alley, but it totally was
-- He led me to live in that one terrific town I lived in, and make
terrific friends there
-- He led me to move to the next terrific town, and make even more terrific
friends there
-- He led me to try out for the Mormon Tabernacle Choir (MoTab). I made it
in on my first try, on what at first seemed like a whim, but the longer I
ponder it, the more I soundly understand that I was meant to be there all my
life. Heavenly Father knows what he’s doing with me
-- He led me to the right people. In my MoTab “night job” I have some
flipping-good “besties.” In my professional day job, I have more besties. They
are circles of incredible folks who are just what the doctor ordered for me;
meaning, I feel like my happiest self when I’m with them. Not only them, but my
family too. Again, Heavenly Father knows!
And it is my firm belief that He has led you – or will lead you – to the
very best people for you, because of your faith
NOT ALL ROADS ARE THE SAME
Not everyone has the same road and life as me. Some people’s
roads don’t include college. Some people’s roads do include college, but they
are those whose careers do have a lot
to do with the specific studies they studied in their classes, practicums,
internships, externships, apprenticeships, residencies, la la la.
Some people know what they want to be when they grow up, and
they will be that, no questions
asked. Some people will change their minds quite a few times, concerning what
occupation they want to stick with.
Some people are married now, while others, including myself, are
still “working on it” ;)
Some people feel like Little Miss Rapunzel here:
FEELING COMPLETE FOR THE TIME-BEING
I want to let you know that, although I feel like I’m totally
“livin’ the dream” right now, I know that my story is not yet finished. I’m not
done yet. Have not yet gained all that God has in store for me. He’s led my
paths according to His plan so far, and we’ve still got a-ways to go.
So often we want to know everything right now, have everything
right now, and to have reached our full potential by right now. Sometimes we forget that a big awesome afghan requires
the slow process of crocheting. Each of us is an afghan in the making. We’re
not done yet, but we’re looking pretty nice and doing really well so far.
Last summer, a few friends and I were driving home from
California. One guy, three gals: Christian, Kerstin, Emily, and me. Christian and Kerstin were sleeping in the back seats, while Em and I had a heart-to-heart life chat. I started
saying that my life was a jigsaw puzzle that was in the process of becoming
completed. I worded a statement something like: I’m not complete yet. I’m still missing some things. I have not yet
accomplished all that I’m supposed to do.
But then she said that she did
feel complete. She felt as complete as she could be at that moment in time.
Her expressed feelings helped me realize that, although my Alisonian afghan is
not yet fully finished, what I am at-present-moment is as complete as it presently
should be, that God is in charge of the handiwork, and that He’s making
something lovely out of me and taking really good care of me. He’s doing that
for each person who will let Him work His wonders on his or her heart, in his
or her life.
REMEMBER THAT IRON ROD?
To conclude, I would like for our attentions to jump backwards
to when I wrote about the “rod of iron” mentioned in the scriptures.
To me, it seems that part of the definition of what it means to
hold fast to the iron rod, alongside feasting upon the “word of God” and
keeping Jesus Christ’s commandments, is simply letting the Lord lead you. But
instead of the scenario being like this:
Alright, my
child, here’s a blindfold for you to put on. Put it on, and I will lead you
along.
Rather, I think it’s more like this:
Alright, my
child, want to be a team? We can work together. I know what the prize is, and
because I love you, I want to help you win it. Sometimes it won’t be easy, and
there will be obstacles that will appear on your path, and so you will want to
keep your eyes open and watch out for those things. I know your road from
beginning to end, like the back of my hand, and so I know how to help you walk
it. I would love to help you. Let’s be a team.
And so, in order to let the Lord lead you, your eyes must be
open, as well as your ears and heart, so you can listen to His voice through
the Holy Ghost’s voice. It will take effort on your part, as it takes effort on
my part.
LIVIN’ THE DREAM, ALL THE TIME
God, who is our loving Heavenly Father, will lead us along the
iron rod, as we make our way towards everlasting joy. He leads us along, little
by little, to be able to taste joy now, too.
Future unspeakable joy is in store for us, but some pretty excellent joy can be
ours now as we journey on to the
ultimate prize.
I know that God is helping me to “live the dream” now, but I now
realize that He’s been doing that all my life. There have been so many dreamy
and precious eras in my life that I have loved. That was “livin’ the dream.”
There will be many more such eras, I am sure. Thatwill be “livin’ the dream” too.
But when we have finished our course here on earth, fought the
good fight, and done our very best to trust in God and follow Christ’s example……
Our reward? That will be really “livin’ the dream”!
**This has
been an extremely long rambling session by Alison Barton. She did not expect
you to read the entire thing. If you did, awesome. Thank you. If you did not,
totally understandable. She commends you for reading even just a fragment of
it. Writing this was mainly for her own benefit. Have a glorious day. Love
you.**
